obligatory birthday post.

Dearest Shadow,


I want to start out with a quote. because, everything i know about the world, i know from reading books.


There are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think well. The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it; and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of either merit or sense.

--Pride & Prejudice, Chapter I, Volume II

That of course was spoken by Elizabeth. My dear lizzy whom i shamelessly borrow witty lines from. Maybe we'd be friends if she wasn't words on paper. But, I digress. With every birthday, i grow older and learn a life lesson. I've been thinking about this year's life lesson. I think it has got to do with having people around and being around people.


I learnt that its possible to have relationships with people who are long gone, people you have never met as well as people like the macdonalds lady. I've learnt that it is actually possible to un-know someone. This takes place when the rate of changes surpass the rate at which they are shared. When that happens, a huge gap occurs. And of course, whenever there is a void, the universe, man-up-there, forces of nature, whatever you call it, will immediately rush in to fill it with the next available option -- it's really the pinnacle of efficiency. When this void is filled, the thing or person that was initially taking up the space becomes displaced. And they have a void and the cycle repeats itself.


Initially I was really very bitchy about being displaced. I mean, you put in a lot of effort to make things work. People sap your energy. But you give it a go nonetheless. I think now, i quite like being displaced! I have more time for myself, my own pursuits and more money in my wallet too. I'd rather spend this time and money with people who'd give me a reality check and kidney if i needed one. and I hope that i can return the favor too.


Along the same lines, the second lesson I have learnt is, don't hold conversations with people who are not your other halves. Absolutely not. Because Jane Austen told you that every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of either merit or sense. More than 200 years have passed since and these inconsistencies plague you and me. They persevere until you let your guard down and BAM! You never know when it comes to bite you in the back. I had a preliminary taste of this lesson with ms-you-should-cut-your-hair. But i guess i didn't learn my lesson. My Bad. Thank you god. It was explicit enough for me to understand and it was stupid of me to learn things the hard way. I will no longer hold conversations with nice people who are mean to work with. Need to brush up my small talk instead.


But of course. Majority of it was just silly blah. Let see. I wore 3 girly shirts successfully this year. Got myself a cardigan. Turned into a serial shopper for a while -- am still figuring out why that happened. Oh yes and shiny flats. It has been a good ride. I do feel grown up. In another month or so, my mother will proclaim me 25 and give me her beginning of the year nag. sorry did i say nag? i really meant talk.


Heels and dresses still have to wait.