fair weather __

dearest shadow,


why do some people seek you out to share their life, blab on and on without asking about how much yours sucks and then consider themselves good friends?

and why do some people behave in such selfish ways when it comes to your time. its ok for them to cancel on you just because you're not working and you're not getting paid or sth. if you're late, its like oh yea, she's always late. by 15 mins.


perhaps when i was working, people were more interested to meet me and were aware of the importance of my one hour with them. maybe now that i'm in school and have more free time, maybe because i'm not doing something part time, they feel my time is less important?


i respect your time. i dont make a fuss when you're late so the least someone could do is to respect mine.


and since when did friendships turn into strategic partnerships? i'm not a petrol company. we're not exxon mobil. or dbs and posb. we're friends. last time i checked, it was based on mutual understanding. and the last time i checked, its the only relationship most of us get a chance to choose.

Perhaps i'm making all the wrong choices. don't i always? as i'm typing this, mj's leave me alone started playing. ah. signs from the universe...

perhaps i'm being petty for nothing. perhaps i've been having too much of a bad week. but perhaps, its time for me to be less condescending, step up and make a in your face statement.

or perhaps, i ought to avoid them like how i avoid ms-you-must-change-your-hairstyle. she apparently misses me.


i ought to spend that time with you, myself, my stomach, suzyleo, nannu, cookie and my lit texts. serves me right for being the girl who can't say no.


cant wait for suzy to ask me her famous "whaaat happennnnn". can't wait for tomorrow.