Desiderata: yours truly

dearest shadow,

It ought to begin like this: Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. but it wont. because,

the following is root beer induced.


1) i shall like my house to have some mess. i dont like living in a museum. and i find things much faster on a messy table than on my very organised files.

2) when i have my own children, i will not complain about having to provide for them. or having them in the first place. its what i'm supposed to do if i had them. giving them food, water, shelter and the entire pyramid of maslow's heirarchy of needs is my job because they did not ask to be born.

3) i will not have children for selfish reasons. to take care of me when i am old. to help around the house. to make me look good by them getting a degree. i will have children because i want to cherish the few years of their innocence before they turn into monsters. or else, i will invest in a good retirement home with life long supply of milk tea and peanut biscuits.

4) if i have a daughter, i will teach her how to change a light bulb, rivet, solder, mix water/oil based paint, understand computer specifications, hang curtains, use screwdrivers and wrenches because washing machines and dryers have been invented, men have learnt how to be chefs and because my father said there's no such thing as a man's job. there is such a thing as a woman's job though. lets wait for the 10th wave of feminism to define that out proper.

5) I will place relationships with loving human beings over and above bricks and mortar. above most tangible things. on par with a bar of dark chocolate. a tall glass of milo.

6) I will use all my powers of tone, wit, latin vocabulary and sarcasm against nasty relatives and in-laws with the most genuine of smiles as i imagine shooting them with a pistol that says shut-the-hell-up-dammit.

7) I will not disregard the things/mistakes that I have done and the important lessons i have learnt from them and while i will apply them in my life, i will not force them on someone else because i hate being bigoted.

8) I will think myself as a perfectionist who does not think she is perfect. I like being proven wrong although i may not admit it. and i deeply respect people who prove me/general society wrong although i may not accept it.and that is because I have a big ego and i will continue to acknowledge its presence as i have always done.

9) I hope to hold true to the ideals i have now: to love, to care, to share and to help ceaselessly, tirelessly. to put principles above money. to appreciate art, beauty, sincerity, good customer service and true friendship. to put someone else and their needs/thoughts/ideas over and above the self and understand that i may not be able to walk a mile in their shoes but i can always walk with them. to be able to say thank you. sorry. i'm such an idiot. you can always sleep with me. Without thinking twice.

10) I want to be able to: whine, feel jealous, angry, judgmental, hate, worry, resentment and guilt. to be able to make fun of accents. eat 6 donuts. let go. write endlessly. to be critical of myself and still aim to be at peace with myself. I want to be able to feel both the good and the bad because i want to take comfort in being human. in being able to make mistakes and blame it on humanness.


and i admit shamelessly that i am nothing more the product of chance, clash of destinies, a couple of prayers, a bunch of jane austen books and shakespeare plays, golden conversation, true friends, long walks, mrt journeys, music, sleepless nights, warm hugs and many shattered dreams.


maybe i should consider switching to ginger beer ;)