sprite induced

dearest shadow,


its two am. on the last day of the year. and i look back at what a serious ride it has been. i'm going to enter into another new phase of my life. it'll be exciting.scary.and i'm anticipating it. i know i'll be complaining and whining alot as it happens. but hey, i do it only with the closest of the closest.

I'm happy to have spent christmas eve touching the pillars of angkor wat, finding a gems in the jungle, secretly taking forbidden photos...and i'm lucky to have spent a good, lazy christmas away from the hustle and bustle of singapore...without all the christmas holiday movies...and i'm glad i'm starting the last day of the year by writing here...


i wanted to really write in here during the vacation....but the vowels on my keyboard had other ideas. they went on strike every once in a while...so yea. i've drafts of badly spelt stuff. maybe i'll clean em up and put it up.

its been fun. i've had a new concoction of drugs. sprite, trite jokes, the grinch, the toothy guy on angkor pillars and lots of laughter. moments that took my breath away. moments that make me want to weep. beauty moves me. the perfection and depth of every single carving....i want to touch it all day....put my face to it, hold the hands that carved those rocks...and feel the spirit of art, creation and steal shots that i know i can only crave for in years to come...

closing your eyes to see prasat kravan towering above you...i want that image to last forever...

sigh.

i can see why i do look drunk to mr tha. heh.

people can live honestly, simply and happily in the hottest of suns, in the poorest of conditions, in the starkest income divide. they take rejection as a part of life. they try again. and again and again. all with a smile. they fall. they get up and dust off and do it all over again. they have such dexterity in spirit and yet the most trusting and kindest of hearts. are these people born or made. i know i cannot do much for them now, at this time. but i have hope for them. they'll get there.

i'm happy. i truly am. i see prasat kravan again.