bleah.

dearest shadow,


i've been missing for a while now. so many things are going on in my life. some good. some irritating.

some nice stuff has happened. but i've been busy and aching everywhere to seriously write about it. they all exist in my brain as muddled words, awaiting some rational configuration and editing.

i've an obligatory bhaavam post. an obligatory birthday post. and another obligatory deepavali post that are lined up in my head. but i'm yet to write them all.


i know i make it sound like its some kind of duty. . . nah. its just to clear my head. to pour it out somewhere so that i dont end up going to bed with so many thoughts running in my head every night....


i'll have to write. about how sometimes i'm taken to be the go to person to get money or something edited. and how that pisses me off. and about how i get angry at myself for being sucha doormat.


i'm tired. its 2 am. i'm scratching my face. i'm starting to develop a serious allergy on my face. it shows up as itchy acne and i'm so irritated. i drank a few cans of root beer recently. and lots of chocolate. maybe it does make it worse.


my thoughts are so random and i'm not making sense. i guess i'll just go to bed now.