hopelessness

Dearest shadow...

its seems like i wrote to you just a few days ago...well, i'm despairing again. I cant help but wonder if someone will just descend from the heavens and explain things to me. I've not slept well for the longest time.

sigh.


i guess that i should always hold unto the belief that there are somethings that are better left unsaid. and that the universe will conspire to get me to the best place possible.

i want to believe this. i'm worried that i'm slowly losing hope. mr bubbly was telling me today that my face looks so troubled. and i agree. i guess that's what is making me look older. so screw all those anti ageing creams that you see. its just the stress that makes you look old. and i hate feeling all this stress and anxiety. do we really have to go through with it? as much as we all treasure things that we work hard to get, i wonder if those things are worth the effort.

ah well.

there i go again. with all those negative feelings. i have so much to say. but i keep it inside. it awaits the right moment. the right expression. the right person to converge all at once. i hope things will go back to normal soon.

i want to just run away.