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dearest shadow,

someone who has finished their exams ought to be relieved and have more time to blog. right? wrong. Guess what? i've finished my exams and i'm not exactly relieved. i'm actually waiting for my results so that i will know whether i have raised my cap and i dont have time to blog because i'm too busy being fabulous. so yes, shoot me.

contrary to the norm, i'm not working this holidays. not full time at least. i'm doing part-time work. the same one that i do when i'm studying. but i realised how lazy i've become and i dont want to give up part of my freedom to go work for that kind of money anymore. i know that by doing that, i wont have enough to splurge on the singapore sale and the arts festival but what the heck. only mango and topshop should cry.

this month is the month of birthdays. i think more people are born in may than any other month. so yes, happy birthday beautiful people. i'm so happy that all of you turn 22 before me. heh. and yes, do keep me in mind when you're holding parties. cuz i'm quite free now and i'm a nice party guest since i bring you nice gifts and sit pretty wherever i'm supposed to.

i've been trying to figure out how to use photoshop. the version on my computer isn't exactly legal. but that does not mean that it isnt. so i'm wondering it that has a bearing on why some of my brushes dont produce effects. maybe i'm just using them wrong. this month, my aim is to learn it well enough. and by well enough, i mean that i should create something decently professional looking. Maybe then, i'll change my skins weekly or something. no promises though.

just last week i managed to uncover some interesting things. Lets just say that they just went onto confirm my opinions about things in general. I was really left to think whether karma will take effect in this birth or in the next. karma is a huge concept for the hindus and an even bigger fascination for me. i've concluded that in this day and age, karma will take effect in this life itself and perhaps the remnant of whatever that hasnt been paid will be carried over to the next.

I'd like to see some people pay their karma. I'd like to pay it all as soon as i possibly can so that it doesn't sneak up on me and kill me when i least expect it. those kinda stuff just doesnt come with a warning. i mean, why didn't they write a manual on it? we've manuals for just about every damn thing there is. From medicine, yoga, sex, jewellery design and even sari colour combinations. but i'm yet to stumble one on karma. geez.

i digress.

I'm very interested to see how some people's lives turn out in the future. yes, i have my signature evil smirk on my face. its not revenge. at least not technically, since i'm not doing anything to cause pain but that too, only because i believe in newton's law that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. being the eternal optimist, i have a strong belief that mine will turn out fine. i just worry about what happens in between now and settling for that picture perfect future.

right.

i'm sure i'd blabber after this so i'll just end here alright?

ciao!