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Dearest shadow...

i think i suffer from the writer's block every once in a while. my darling overactive imagination fails me at writing but has enough juice to imagine that the blinking cursor is openly mocking me and my lack of ideas. its almost like i can hear it giving me an evil laugh at each blink.

ah well.

i remember when term started, i wished nan, happy "half the month of january is gone" day. yes. i make up weird days to wish people. and now its officially "chinese new year is coming soon" day. So i suppose that i'll have quite a few make up lectures and what not. i know that i need to catch up on my readings, considering i've not really done much.

right now, i'm distracted. by so many things. but certainly, by the upcoming concert. the pieces are coming along nicely. its much sooner this time. and i just pretend that i'm not wearing green again although the saree sits right on my table. doesnt happen to be my most favouritest colour.

rehearsals are everyday from now on. which is a good thing. and too much of a good thing can be a bad thing. sigh. i dont think that i can spend time with my dear friend who happens to be a boy. and after the concert, he will not be in this stupidly small country for two weeks. omg. how will he live without the ice kachang? and how will i live without him?

dont get me wrong. i mean, i can live. but not in the way i've always been. sigh. i've had a few of my dear college buddies think we're in love. i dont know what makes it seem that way. i dont really see it. but maybe, just maybe, they are right.

friendship is love right? something that doesnt have a mandatory promise of for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health and till death do us part. it just happens to be a wonderful relationship. and he's my bestest friend. if something happens, let it be. i bet i can embrace it. and if it stays this way, i'll love him just the same.

as they say, que sera sera.

what will be, will be.