120th post

dearest shadow....

officially, this will be the 120th post that i'm publishing....whether that is supposed to be special or not is up to your judgement....

why i am making a special note of this is quite basic....its just to highlight that my conversations with you have come a long way and sometimes when i tweak my blog, i'd test the links and see if the archive links work...many a time they do not cuz my blog is now hosted on an external server....whenever they dont work, i'd wonder whether the archives really matter....whether they even need to be linked properly....at those times, i'd pick a random post with some wierd title and read it all over....

and what i have come to realise after reading those posts is that my life has been taking quite alot of turns....i've always wanted a normal life....not too much sun...not too much rain...and not too much dark clouds....preferring to always have some familiarity with everything...in the situations that i encounter, the people i meet and even the music i play...

and yet i advocate that spice is the variety of life and that life is all about taking risks....what a serious contradiction my preaching has been from reality....i've not been the most wonderful of persons who has led the most politically correct life nor the most unoffensive life.....

right now, life has taken yet another turn that i am not familiar with...so old yet so new....the turns have been happening over and over and yet it feels too new to handle....to even take a step....again, i'm contradicting myself when i preach that life is about risks.....at this point i'm afraid of the unknown...petrified of taking a stab in the dark....

i rather stab myself...haiz.

well shadow....there have been times even my fish have gone to sleep listening to my rants....thank you so much for all the times where i know i've been listened to....you cant protest much....but that makes it all the more easier....for i know that if you had life, you might not listen as well....

so theres it then....my 120th post.

till later...

bubbye