rollercoaster weeeek....

dearest shadow...

the past week has been quite an emotinal roller coaster...

it all started this monday...at lunch time when i got a msg from a friend...and the contents of that msg shocked me....it was beyond my comprehension...personally i wasnt able to react at all....

tuesday....still reeling from that shock and another hits me...this time, from another person....i never never expected that shock at all...cuz i was just so sure that i was right...and when i believe that i am right....i am...all the time.....on tuesday, the lord decided to knock me in the head and say that i have been fooled....misled....i feel pretty crappy about it....i wasnt able to play my vina properly...the orchestra piece was really nice and yet i wasnt able to get the tone right...think my teacher might have been a bit disappointed...

wednesday......all thru the day was just thinking about the shock that came on tuesday...wasnt able to concentrate on anything....think i also messed up someone people's special day and made it not so special...

thursday...that is yesterday, i met up with the person who was affect by the crisis on monday....wasnt able to see her in that situation...really...gave her the biggest hug my small figure could give....

and today is friday....i wonder what other things are awaiting me...haizzz...


oh well....rollercoaster weeek.....makes me wonder why some false things appear so real....