yes i'm alive.

dearest shadow...

suppose you are wondering if i am really alive...well the answer to that is yes and no...

not alive in the sense that i'm really tired...didnt know that working and studying at the same time would be this tiring...sometimes i rarely have time for myself...really wonder how pple work and study and manage all these stuff well...seems like i've got alot to learn in this aspect...mom told me that i have support myself already...think that my bro might be going to poly...yea so...you know how expensive that can be...

i'm the cheap baby...unlike my bro's...nevermind.....i prefer it to be this way.....i tend to feel really bad when too much money is spent on me.....i mean...its hard earned money...and when that is spent on me, i can only feel guilty that the money earned has disappeared because of me...

yea...work is starting to pick up now...have been slacking around like a sloth for the last month...now everything is rush rush rush....haiz....and all the pple in my office always have the msn messenger on...think it rubbed off on me......its kinda wierd when you get a pop up and it says, "pls attend meeting now." or "please reserve 7 tickets in row M"...oh welll....quirky world...


thought that after A's everything would be a bright sunny cloud....but it never is....
not everything is bright and sunny...sometimes, i just wish it was...but dark clouds always loom ahead...threatening to pour with thunderous claps and blinding flashes of lightning...

dark dreams haunt me when i sleep....what if this or what if that....oh no!! what will happen if that doesnt happen?? what will i do?? fear grips at the heart and you feel like you are going mad...

think i've gone barking mad....really..