re-vamp

Dearest shadow...

i think i'm in need of a major revamp in my life. the last time i thought that, it was around christmas. i had completely changed the layout of this blog and yes, i was still at room cleaning phase -121.

Now its the second time and whoa! time has passed us by eh shadow? to quote myself "i've not even finished my new years resolutions yet"...its gonna be the end of term. no more lectures, tutorials, mid-terms, quizzes, mugging and NO MORE group work and certainly no more MEGA bites cafeteria. thank god for that at least. give us our arts canteen back dammit! ok wait, i digress. its been kinda long and i've not taken any sort of action yet. apart from the fact i'm at room cleaning phase 3. heh.


and i cant think of any way to revamp my life. i mean, i've been making slight changes here and there but i cant think of anything radical. heh. radical. get it?? farnie right? oh well. forget it. think i'm even losing my sense of humor. sad. sad. sad.

i know at least 3 dozen people read this blog. at least once a week. i have webstats. i wonder if anyone will make a fuss if i take this blog down..... [did i hear a cry of pain there?] i can think of 3 people who'd be like "OMG NOOOOOOOO!" heh. wait a second. i'd cry more if i lost my blog so i'm not going to tear it down. it might just go for a revamp too. maybe get a domain change. and stick my email address to the domain. and i'm debating whether to leave it on the server and do changes a teeny bit at a time or just remove the formatting and stick a new one in after i'm satisfied with all the changing skin thing.....mind you, i'm a perfectionist.

I think i know what i really need. i need a vacation more than a revamp. and i need to work myself sick enough to complain that i'd rather be slogging in campus. which of course will be in reverse when i'm actually in slogging in campus. thats the kind of vacation i need.

btw, did i mention that exams are slightly over 2 weeks away? weeeee! and i'm yet to start. yay! i used to call this positive thinking. but i've to stick true to my realist roots. its plainly called p-r-o-c-r-a-s-t-i-n-a-t-i-o-n. there. i've spelled it out in black and white. or rather brownish and purplish. if someone has a magic pill to cure this strange illness, please mail me your suggestions. i need a miracle. and i need it fast.

i'm worried that my cap might fall. i hope i can pull thru with this one. the performances and all have been kinda hard on me...i've been procrastinating and piling work up sky high. :( i've been a baddie. i've got to justify my pursuits and what not if anything happens. and yes, that includes the revamp that i really want. its kinda annoying when you're stuck in a rut.

so shadow, please pray. nan, i'm praying for both of us. selfish aint i? bleah.