this week.

Dear Shadow...

the so called term break is coming to an end....i'm still figuring out what the last 6 weeks covered....and i'm hoping that the coming weeks will be more easier on the soul....

so, to see if i had a successful week, i must tick off my TO DO list....lets see....i cleaned my room...as always i keep piling junk and then cleaning...i managed so sort out some notes....my filing mechanism has gone haywire and i'm trying to repair that part of the brain that always craves some organisation and most importantly, i spent time with two wonderful souls...

that's probably the highlight of the week so far.... :)

well, walking from city hall, to raffles place and then down to tanjong pagar....hmmmm....i've not done that in a very long time....and having intelligent conversation pepper the journey was wonderful....all hail robinson road...

and yes, it has been a million years since i sat in macdonalds, ate filet o fish and yakked away for hours....thank you for the gossip and trash talking session.....i dont understand how is it that i make no sense out of my own dialogue but the other party seems to understand what i mean....do you find it wierd? well, i do...i guess some people just know you inside out eh?

yup...another month gone...whooooosh....i guess thats what time will sound like when it passes....right now, i keep hearing that sound all the time...everything is screaming for time...time and more time...how come there isnt a hindu god who deals with time? i mean, if there was, we could just pray with all our heart and probably get more hours granted to us...or maybe we could slow it down.....alright. i'm kidding...i'm not making fun of my faith...i'm just wishing...

the next highlight of the week....

in another 12 hours time, i should be preparing for performance again....i'm actually quite excited. and to tell you the truth, i'm feeling quite nervous...jittery...and this is wierd...i usually dont feel any anxiety before a performance...but suddenly, i feeling anxious...

so unnatural...well, i do believe that all will be alright...i have confidence in myself...even as i type this, i feel slightly worried....but as i always say, i'd rather channel the energy elsewhere.

I've an action packed week....i've to thank god for the opportunities that came my way...and yes...apologise for an opportunity that i turned down....situations and circumstances are such....i wouldnt do it again....i'm not a deeply religious person...and i havent been fasting for the special days....i'm sorry...i accept that i dont have the maturity nor the discipline...all i have is my music, my art to offer...i pray its enough...and i hope my prayer reaches you...please bless me tmrw....

and i hope to see a recognizable face in the audience.

:)