gibberish.

dearest shadow...

i had a very profound experience today....more like yesterday...but since it was past midnight, its today....

i read the blog of a close friend....i didnt know she had a blog....i stumbled upon accident...and i read it earnestly....i fell in love with her....her writing was just gorgeous...in fact, one cant classify it as a blog...or her writings as posts....its almost like a portal and her words are just the purest form of poetry....

poetry....i love poetry very much...i used to speak in rhymes and spoke anglo saxon english and shakespearean sonnets in everyday conversation....in fact, i still do....so stumbling upon her blog should feel like i'm in possession of a honeycomb.....but it didnt.

her poetry, killed me....not in the literary sense, but yes, in the poetic sense....it was so beautiful that it claimed my soul....and it was so painful that it killed my spirit....my spirit was in agony just reading her lines....

it never ceases to amaze me how words have an impact on me....how one word brings me joy and how another word tortures my unadultered soul...and yes, it never ceases to amaze me how some people derive joy by pressing their calculator and the all important equal button....dont get me wrong...i'm not prejudiced against them...my dad's an engineer...and mom works in the field of management....i grew up looking at them do math and science and drawings down to the most precise points....and yes, i liked science and all those stuff....i was in the science club you know....

but now, having grown up, i despise it...completely despise it...so much so that if i see a science student in the arts faculty doing an arts degree, i get so pissed....they have the cheek to say that the arts faculty is a dumping ground and then they have landed their butts in the same dumping ground they criticise.....well, its not like having them around gives some sort of prestige to the arts faculty...its just downright annoying when people have such crap in their minds....if you take arts, then respect it....its as much a discpline as science...

and yes, for your information, linguists have made known that the word science actually means "discpline" and the word mathematics means "knowledge of" not the meanings we use today....even those words have been slaughtered....

stop slaughtering it....and yes, stop killing our spirits....

someone mentioned to me that i'm take things too personally in my blog....or post things that are too personal....and sometimes i sound like a social reformist....what ever that may mean....i have one thing to say. i'm not the 17 year old who started this blog....i've grown past that and yes, i live life vividly....experience every conversation, every word, every emotion....even emails....

just a clarification....the author of the blog is a different person from the person who is narrating incidences to the blog....and the person who is narrating is distinct from the person who is writing it....and yes...the all important shadow need not necessarily belong to the author, narrator or writer....the shadow can be the dream of a distant detachment...dreams dont necessarily exist do they?

in case you think i'm uttering gibberish....i know exactly what i mean. if you dont, maybe you should read more...and yes, between the lines....