Of dreams and dust...

dearest shadow...


i know i owe a post to some people who read and grumble that they dunno what's going on in my life...although that group is a minority....i've an obligation to....so here it is...

things have been really busy at the workplace...i mean getting off your butt and going places and arranging things is not really my cup of tea...or milo for that matter...i'd rather sit in the air conditioning at my very own private cube and listen to club beats with hot milo in my hands...but when duty calls, i fly to the rescue....like superman...or woman....or girl...or whatever larr....

i guess my diploma papers are flying to cambridge to be marked....i'm feeling kinda wierd actually...you see, i took the course outta plain desperation....in case i do flunk my A's i'd have a strong back up....that too from cambridge itself...so right now, i'm wondering...if i do well in that...meaning if get an A [i hope] since i managed an A2 for GP, i might seriously consider doing something constructive with it instead of just letting it sit in my file with all the other unused shiny certs....

hmmmm......thaaaat aside, i'm so happy with my work....lalala.....my colleagues commented that i'm a workaholic....yea man...i love working :) its just so liberating....spending your earnings on yourself is not that liberating though...its not like i'm buying myself luxuries...just food, transport and rainy day savings take up 98%....so yea...that pretty much sums up my state...

and yes...suzy....i'm still waiting...the sale isnt over...YET...last time i checked, it ends on 23 july...

on tuesday, i had a really wonderful experience...i went for my music class as usual...in my bright sunshine yellow outfit...such a cheery day...finally i had my teachers undivided attention...i just hate it when a buncha idiots turn up and spoil the entire lesson...i mean, there's a distinction between music and noise...it you make noise, then get outta the music class...lame asses...btw where were we? right...music class...i learnt a new song piece...it really got me feeling so light...like i was drifting...

i learnt almost half of the song in like 45 mins...she was so pleased and she was sad that she couldnt have me on the orchestra the this time round...i felt so treasured when she said that...haizzz....i wish i had more time to devote as well...

for the last 15 minutes, she left the class to settle some admistration matters...so i played the instruments loudly...and filled the silence...stopped for a moment since i was starting to feel the strain on my fingers...all i heard was silence...there was so much peace in that...being the only person to soak it all up...i could hear myself think...

thought back at the words my teacher uttered earlier....and being the practical person i am, i told myself....When Dreams turn into Dust -- vaccum.

and so i smiled to myself and played again...so what if i couldnt be in the orchestra this time round? i have many more years to come...and many more audience and stage performances await me...i'm seeking the rainbow...but i must also accept the rain that comes before that...

but guess what....i've been selected again... :) She told me that i'll be playing on this year's stage production as well....i just couldnt contain my excitement....was somersaulting inside my heart..i guess things happen for a reason...i've come to fully understand that...there was a time when i used to brush off those cliched proverbs as so passe...not anymore...guess i'm growing old eh? maybe not...i left my class almost prancing like my six year old self...YAY!

didnt have to vaccum after all... hehe!