dawn

dearest shadow...

i know this is long overdue...and i know that i've been Miss-ing....with a capital M that is....alright...for those who care, i'm sorry and please go on and read my crap....and for those who dont, please direct your kind attention to the red box with an X on the top right hand corner...press it and you'll reach nirvana in a few seconds....heh....i'm kidding....i think i'm starting to have a sense of humour....i hope thats good... :P

ok so i've been gone...some are jealous...and some are REAL angry...sure....i'll sympathise....i'll be kind and throw you a hug or two...but hey...dont push it...i deserve my rest yea?? so where have i been you ask? i've been to the place my soul longed to be in....

my very own food paradise...the kind where you get your money's worth....not the one where you pay a day's salary to get a squished tofu with raw stuff and gourmet sauce...believe me...i've been there...those meals occupy like 7% of the plate and 98% of your wallet....and no i'm not exaggerating...

so i ate to my tummy's fill...i learnt that the most deceptive part of my body is my tummy....cuz it stores more than it seems to have space for...are you jealous? bleah...i dont care...i love my tummy nonetheless...daddy did most of the shopping and i did most of the eating....and of course, a lot of reflecting...

i realised many things...and something about travelling fascinates me....the paradigm shift you experience is just incredible...as much as i'd like to say that i loved the place i was in, in some teeny corner of my heart, i was longing for my pillow fight worthy pillows and my squishy bolster...although i'd hate to admit this, simplicity beats luxury living....but not always...so enjoy it while you have it...


they say the grass is much greener on the other side....i'm like...what grass? and what shade of green are we talking about here? what seems greener is probably due to perception...and it may well be a mirage....i guess i've believed in that saying for a really long long time....but perhaps, just perhaps, i saw through the seemingly beautiful and the ugly and realised that there really is more things than what lies on the surface....what we often see with our waking eyes is but the facade....peeling back the layers usually results in something more wholesome....and to do that, you dont need sight...but vision...

so shadow, lets peel back the layers on experiences...good and bad...and leave emotional baggage, daily persona and egos at the door...reflect a bit...and probably try to be a better person...just a teeny bit will do....it'll accumulate...

do allow me to state the obvious...a new year has dawned upon us...i'm not a fan of resolutions....i do make them...but i wont put any here...i'd rather cheer people on...and i'll make a few prayers to render myself useful to society...maybe someone might pray for me....and maybe god will shine me some light to take another step into the unknown...

so there....my prayers for a year of healing, progress and strength to all who are dear and to all i'm scared to love...