retrospection vs reinvention

Dearest shadow...

sorry for the lack of updates...as usual i have my reasons....i'm really tired right now so i'm not going to bother to explain...cuz its not like people care...so what has your highness been up to? here's what...

Exams have always been the bane of my life and yes, although its wonderful to be in the wonderful university of slopes/stairs but exams are not a part of that....sometimes i feel like an idiot for studying for the A's....doing arts in the U isnt much easier....in fact, i'm really sure that i'll score for both my modules in the science Fac...for the rest, i'll pray to the almighty arts canteen to save my grades....cuz i know god cant....

ah well...enough of school....i've been cleaning my room since deepavali 3 years ago and it never ceases to amaze me how junk gets piled up....and mind you, none of this junk is mine....i opened the cupboard to find sth to wear today and instead of some t shirt falling out, my brother's football came flying...thank god it didnt dirty my clothes or permanent deflation will be its fate...and i've accepted that it'll get dirty no matter how much i clean....and so the lesson learnt is : dont sweat it...whack the ball at the fish tank once in a while...

and the last time i saw a certain chocolate covered cookie was when i was late for work....and that too lasted only for the 190 journey which ended with a really warm hug....i got to work and couldnt be bothered when they screwed me for being late when i'm doing front desk...screw them....i've been spending the rest of the time missing her instead of blogging....

speaking of which, i've expended my energy doing more things than i should be doing and i think i ought to take more rest....and hit the esplanade library as much as or at least half as much i hit town....but then again, i hardly go there to have fun these days....so thats reason enough that i've worked hard...and not dated enough people....but thats another story....

i think i know the reason why...i guess i've been in the company of people who know me less than half a decade or even a tenth of my life...who cant care less to observe the person within....and dont know enough to even know what they mean when they say i've changed or tell me what i'm made of....but i'm glad some people go deep enough to keep you rooted...and to tell you that you're still the same no matter how you change your hair...so maybe i should change....more like reinvent myself...when? tmrw onwards maybe? seems like a good day...anyways, its time....

oh and this reinvention business is sth i've been attempting for the time i wasnt blogging....was talking to suz abt it too...dont worry...aint going to be anything drastic....i'm not gonna turn up like madonna in a blonde wig...surely subtle...and surely for the better thru my perspective....not other creatures....because that'll make me a victim of circumstance...i want my actions to be associated with me and me alone....that way, it'll not tarnish the names of those close to me....but then again....only pariahs think that way...and i dont care much for pariahs...cuz their brains reside in muck...

enough of that....so whatcha think of my new skin?? been at it for some time actually...does it scream reinvention? cuz that was what i was thinking when i was doing it....

and so it begins....the reinvention...you are welcome to be part of the journey...