disappointed..

dearest shadow...

as of today, orchestra practice comes to an end...the performance today went alright actually....we were the 20th performance...we reached there at close to 3 the performance was almost at 6...can you imagine my boredom?? gosh...i would have slept there le....

in the orchestra there's only one guy and i always thought that he was a really boring fella and all but today, surprise surprise.....he wore traditional clothes and he seemed like a totally new person and all....clothes maketh the man....you gotta agree with shakespeare....we ended up sitting side by side on in front of the stage....i wasnt nervous or anything....been on stage many times before and i never really felt intimidated....but that fella was really nervous and since i was sitting next to him, he passed on his anxiety unto me...and yes...i made mistakes while playing....felt like a total idiot after that cuz the mike was next to my instrument...haiz....think my teacher was slightly upset...

i felt really bad but some said that it wasnt noticable at all....i do know my teacher noticed it so it doesnt make a difference whether others noticed...after that, the orchestra disbanded and only prakash and i were left...we carried the instruments back....the rest went to see their children and friends play...i sat there till i could go back home...finally prakash went home too....so there...thats it....

now i'm here lamenting to you that even after rigourous orchestra practice, i made mistakes....i feel disappointed with myself.....there'll be a next time....