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Dearest shadow…

I just took a bath…my hair is giving me a hard time…just like me…obstinate…alrighty…lemme get to business…



I have been missing a lot of things in my life these days…but missing people makes me feel worse…makes me feel empty inside…allow me to rant..



Sometimes I don’t know how to express what I feel inside…not that I have a lousy vocab..but its just that it’s a bit complex for me to understand what is even going on inside of me…crazy….truly truly craaaaaazy.



That day…J msged me…was very touched by all the messaged that I received…I wanna go see Joyce one of these daysss…she’s sooo near…I miss her loads…



Its been pretty long since I got to see my vinishvarleee….i miss her toooo…am really tied up in school these dayss..i don’t wanna go home either…don’t see the point…don’t get me wrong here…but I really do feel at home in college…its wonderful..there are pple you know…naggin aint that baad…



And there are pple who you see everyday…and still miss em…how is this so?? Isn’t this probably the most horrible way to miss someone??? Sit right next to them….talk to them..yet miss them?

Sheesh maan..sometimes, I wish that I could find the missing factor. Things seemed kinda ahem ahem in the start…still discovering…I wanna go back to the start…and do it all over again…that was just sooo beautiful…wonderful…but life just aint got a rewind button…its gd in a way…wishing that it exists is just plain childhood fantasy…



I accept that such fantasies will never come true…but yet I secretly wish that it would turn up somewhere…I have to grow up from all this childhood fantasy…or have i??

Don’t know…

Let time answer thattt…





Alrighty…I suppose you can understand that I aint myself today…been like that for a while noww…

i just miss you honey...love you lots tooo...

Bubbyee..



Nites.

P.S….the rewind button was inspired by someone…guess she’ll understand who she is…; )